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Friday, January 18, 2008
thought i would abandon this place once and for all since i havent been blogging.
but i truly need some space to rant today, thereby falling back into this rather
cosy corner once more.
today's been a really bad day, but an amusingly bad one i must say.
its a ride of looking forward to something so badly, and then being denied of that something so quickly. its like a pretty helium balloon that pops all of a sudden. yet, the strongheaded me still didnt want to let it go although impossibilities was so boldly displayed and thoroughly rationalised to me. though my mind had given up, my heart was still clinging on to it. so i made the wildest decision which only promised just a trickle of chance. but faith played a trick on me and it was a second disappointment of the day. i couldnt believe that i could actually pour it out all at one go. it was total embarrassment. irrationality was at its peak and i gained my mind back only upon reaching home.a little too late maybe, cos what's done been done.
i thought hard upon the whirlpool that i've let myself sank in today. and im relieved to find an answer attached to all that nonsense. it was actually a pretty simple and comforting reason.
but i really do hope such things dont occur again. faith please dont play anymore tricks. but that's just a wishful thinking on my part i guess, for such tricks are inevitable in the game of love.
sorry for the abstraction, cos i'm pretty certain no one would be able to make any head or tail out of it. but a rant is never meant to be understood isnt it? and anyone out there dont have to understand anyway.
staying strong is tough, but not impossible isnt it (:
you're so dearly missed.
yay, its weekend!
♥
Friday, January 18, 2008
thought i would abandon this place once and for all since i havent been blogging.
but i truly need some space to rant today, thereby falling back into this rather
cosy corner once more.
today's been a really bad day, but an amusingly bad one i must say.
its a ride of looking forward to something so badly, and then being denied of that something so quickly. its like a pretty helium balloon that pops all of a sudden. yet, the strongheaded me still didnt want to let it go although impossibilities was so boldly displayed and thoroughly rationalised to me. though my mind had given up, my heart was still clinging on to it. so i made the wildest decision which only promised just a trickle of chance. but faith played a trick on me and it was a second disappointment of the day. i couldnt believe that i could actually pour it out all at one go. it was total embarrassment. irrationality was at its peak and i gained my mind back only upon reaching home.a little too late maybe, cos what's done been done.
i thought hard upon the whirlpool that i've let myself sank in today. and im relieved to find an answer attached to all that nonsense. it was actually a pretty simple and comforting reason.
but i really do hope such things dont occur again. faith please dont play anymore tricks. but that's just a wishful thinking on my part i guess, for such tricks are inevitable in the game of love.
sorry for the abstraction, cos i'm pretty certain no one would be able to make any head or tail out of it. but a rant is never meant to be understood isnt it? and anyone out there dont have to understand anyway.
staying strong is tough, but not impossible isnt it (:
you're so dearly missed.
yay, its weekend!
